“This is Love’s Greatest Test”. This is a poem about a word I received from the Lord that I was going to lose my husband. I, in my not so infinite wisdom, figured I would lose him but that he would come back. After all, we had a solid marriage, and this poem said it was only going to be a test. Tests are something you have a chance at passing, right?
“And yes it has to be”. When God gives you a word, it is going to happen whether you want it to or not. By the fact that he told me “it had to be” meant I was questioning His infinite wisdom. Not a good thing to do.
“You have to set him free”. There was action involved in this line for me. I had to do something. I had to stand back and “let” him go. I did not know how I was going to do that. I tried to brace myself and asked God for the strength to do that.
“To hang on his own tree”. I didn’t know what this meant when I first wrote it. I seldom knew what my poems meant back then when I first write them, but later they made perfect sense. This relates to the story of Judas Iscariot and how he sold out a walk with the Lord for money and then later when the guilt got to him he hung himself on a tree. My husband ended up walking away from our marriage because of his job and that’s what that line ended up meaning. To this day I still don’t know how he ever felt about doing that.
“He’s been exposed to it all, Through everything we did, Now he has to make his choice, It can no longer be hid”. This has to do with the steps to salvation. They were laid out for him very clearly in all the church sermons, classes, bible studies, friends and etc. that we were involved with for that 10 years. For those who don’t know what the steps to salvation are, they are as follows:
- John 3:7: You must be born again
- Romans 3:23: For all have sinned and come short of the glory of God
- Romans 6:23a: For the wages of sin is death ..
- Romans 5:8: But God commendeth His love toward us, in that, while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us.
- Ephesians 2:8-9: For by grace are ye saved through faith; and that not of yourselves; it is the gift of God; not of works, lest any man should boast.
- Revelation 3:20: Behold, I stand at the door and knock; if any man hear my voice, and open the door, I will come in to him and will sup with him, and he with me.
- John 1:12: But as many as received Him, to them gave He power to become the sons of God, even to them that believe on his name.
- 1 John 1:9: If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness
- Romans 10:13: For whosoever shall call upon the name of the Lord shall be saved
- John 3:16: For God so loved the world that He gave His only son, that whosoever believeth in Him should not perish, but have everlasting life.
- 2 Corinthians 6:2b: …Behold, Now is the accepted time; behold NOW is the day of salvation.
“’Cause it’s in his heart, And you saw it very clear, It may hurt you deeply, And cause you even some fear!”. This section speaks to a hatred that I saw in my husband’s heart for me. He also started getting violent with me and it scared me.
“But I’ll hold you tight, Until the end when you find, The same reward I gave my Son, The one who knew My Mind”. This speaks again of salvation and finding heaven in the end while walking with the Lord here on earth until we get there.
I did not know until later that this poem meant it was love’s greatest test between the Lord and I, not my husband and I. My husband didn’t come back and I would have to learn how to survive on my own with 1/4 the income but all the bills. Those experiences are covered in the book “How to Get Near God’s Heart” for sale at Kindle.